— J.UK.
AKA, Heo Jaekyung.
Sexy long legged leader and lead rapper of Dux.
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bold any fears that apply to your muse. italicize what makes them uncomfortable (and add your own if they aren’t listed)
the dark | fire | open water (sea/ocean) | (any) deep water | being alone | crowded/enclosed spaces (agoraphobia) | confined spaces (claustrophobia) | change | failure | war | being controlled/lack of free will | prison | blood | drowning | suffocation | public speaking | natural animals (any kind) | supernatural monster/animals | heights | death/dying | intimacy | rejection | abandonment | the unknown | the future | not being good enough | scary stories | talking to new people | poverty | loud noises | being touched | powerlessness | temptation | betrayal | commitment
Her first performance, debut stage. All four held hands, and they were nervous — but as the leader, Jaekyung had to gather her inner strengh to cheer them on, motivate tem — and moreover, calm them. When she, herself, was on edge. They went on, rapped and sang their passionate determination which they’ve built the past two years. When they all went down, they started tearing up for the excitment, but only when she layed in bed — then did the tears gather in her eyes. Proud tears, accomplished.
05:A memory that your character wishes to erase
Her grandmother’s death, most definitely. And there is no second thought about it — she doesn’t want to remember anything that has to do with the cruel words she uttered — well, shouted, during their argument and before she left, and not her cold yet peaceful body on the livingroom’s couch. Especially, she’d like to forget the serenity upon her features. It still haunts her, at times, at nights… nightmares of her grandmother’s peaceful facial expression.
Possessiveness. She likes to be pulled close, to have her gaze pierced intensely with by the other and be to reminded that this person wants only her, that they aren’t willing to share her love with anyone. Although, not in an exaggerated manner for then it turns into a serious turn-off. She simply falls head over heels with such sort of confidence.
11:Describe your character’s childhood friend
The new guy. Well, third grade’s new guy, who came from Busan and had a funny accent which many kids made fun of. Yet, young Jaekyung had befriended him, and upon discovering they’ve had may shared hobbies and interests, they became friends. He helped her with her math, whilst she helped him improve his accent and fit in more. It was a win-win situation — until he moved to united states at tenth’s grade. They’ve eventually lost contact.
Cookies. They’re so damn high. A chair isn’t enough for her to reach — and she is the tallest in kindergarten! Does it halt the determined five year old? Not at all. Another chair, and another stool, a pile — she stood atop of it. Just a little more stretching, goddamn, why are they so tall? And in frustration, she manages to reach it with her tiptoes — but oops. A loud clash is heard, and all three chairs are on floor, one of them being on top of Jaekyung — who’s knee is scraped in the slit of kitchen tiles. The most memorable thing was her grandmother’s facial expression — she was not worried, panicked, or judging. She only laughed and helped the little girl to stand up straight, one warm hand wiping the tears across her cheeks. “This is what happens if you try to eat desserts before dinner, stupid.”
03:A memory from your character’s career
August 2014, disbanding. She had to say goodbye, and that causing a heartbreak of a sort for Jaekyung, she got into a light sadness. Depression would’ve been a very strog word to use — too strong — but she was incredibly sad, and she cried for days. It was a point in her career in which she must have chosen whether she would like to continue, or not. To perform music now that half of her group, her sisters, friends, girls — are missing and deal with the pain, or quit, for once and for all.
15:Describe your character’s worst enemy
She has no enemies — she’s yet for ‘find’ one. But rather, I’d say her self-conscious is by far, her worst enemy. It halt her, or at least, causes her to think twice, trice, and million times before doing or saying things, at times. And sometimes — the outcome of hesitation isn’t all good to say the least. It stops her from growing, maturing, realizing, expanding.
18:What kind of music your character likes
Over-all, she enjoys almost every genre of music, but lately slow Western songs had caught her attention. But often, she’d listen to all kind of songs from her featured list on youtube, then download thm without taking further notice to the artist, so it really depends on her mood.
19:What your character does when they wake up
At first, in all honesty — she’d whine. Whine loudly, for a long moment as she stretches her body and force herself to get up — but once she had, all te drowsiness dissapears and she is energetic, brushing her teeth, and drinking coffee. Because it is not a day if she doesn’t have her cup of coffee. She then gets ready to whenever she is planning on going.
Surprisingly and quite un-unique — it is warm, long bath. Bubbles preffered, but if out of reach, then simply laying her body in the tranquil feeling of warm water, and with her eyes closed, she allows herself, as if, to ‘wash out’ all those burderns of the day. There were times that she nearly fell asleep in the bath for it was so calming, but to her fortune — someone (her grandmother) was there to wake her up before she drowned.
24: Talk about something someone told you that meant a lot.
”Actually, I remember when you said that you were proud of me. You know me, I’m always stressed and wanting to satisfy others, so you made me feel very eased then. Like all my efforts payed off. I was really happy, and… I actually wanted to cry a little, because I felt like everything I’ve been and come through until these days was worth it, difficult or not.”
“Honestly, I’m not sure. I can’t deny that this thought crossed my mind not once nor twice, but I’ve yet to make some sort of assumption. I believe that if the person suffered before, then death is the sweet relief, and it’s…. I think that death is pure, somehow. It’s an absolute state of serenity — you know, as Freud said, it is the state where you have no conflicts and therefore, all us humans wish to reach death, somehow. But I’m not sure… death kind of scares me.”
25:Talk about an ex-best friend —— ”We had a vow, to remain best friends for life. We knew since middle school, and I honestly counted her as a sister, but somehow, we started drifting off by the second year of high school, and while I became a trainee, she went straight to one of the highest ranked universities. She even planned on learning abroad — medicine, she was always that type of ambitious girl. She couldn’t come to my grandmother’s funeral, and I felt betrayed. We hadn’t spoken in four years.”
26:Talk about things you do when you’re sick. —— ”My grandmother always said that when I’m sick, I act as if I’m the healthiest person on earth, like, I insist on doing everything even if I am really not capable of doing those things. But if the illness is greater than my immune system or strength, I end up sleeping. That is all. Sleep the sickness away.”
27:Talk about your favorite part of someone else’s body. —— ”Somebody’s body… Cleo’s rear. In all honesty, I may be the tallest and thinnest in our gro— duo, but her rear is better than mine. Mine’s a flat ugly one, and her apple hip— mhm. I’m envious. I wouldn’t mind giving up a few centimeters of my height for such hips and behinds… I’d fill in my jeans way better, honetly.”
28:Talk about your fetishes. —— "I have none. I am innocent, I swear—— kinda.“
29:Talk about what turns you on. —— ”Confidence. Manliness.”
30:Talk about what turns you off.—— ”Over-confidence, superior feeling ( of the other side), low hygiene, stuff liek these..”
35:Talk about things you wish you could stop doing.
”I wish I could stop overthinking. I tend to do that way too much, and it’s unhealthy. I also keep comparing myself to others, and although it is wrong and causes so much stress. I just can’t help myself. I wish I could stop doing those. Then I would definitely be more at ease.”
20:Talk about something that happened in high school.
”So this cute guy, yeah? We were together on social studies class, and on the very first day he forgot his textbook. He asked if we could share and sat by my side. We ended up being ‘partners’ for the whole year, it was tenth grade. I sort of developed a big crush on him — he was just so sweet and charming and funny and handsome and genuine and… well, long story short — a party. We cae together, as ‘dates’… we needed to come in pair. I can’t recall what for. Anywho — I planned on confessing my feelings to him that night, but around… a late hour, I can’t recall, I searched for him and what did I see? He was making out with a guy.”
Eyes: Blue | Green | Brown | Hazel | Grey | Other Hair: Blonde(dyed) | Brown | Black | Red | Ginger | Grey/White | Multi-color | Other | Body Type:Skinny | Slender | Slim | Built | Curvy | Athletic | Muscular Skin: Pale | Light | Fair | Freckled | Tan | Olive | Medium | Dark | Discolored Gender: Male | Female | Trans* | Cis | No Gender | Other Sexuality:Heterosexual | Homosexual | Bisexual | Pansexual | Asexual | Demisexual | Other | Verse dependent Species:Human | Undead/Vampire | Shapeshifter (Weres) | Demon | Angel | Witch/Wizard/Sorcerer | Incubus/Succubus | Other
Education:High School | College | University | Higher Education Living Situation: Lives alone | Lives with parents/guardian | Lives with significant other | Lives with a friend | Drifter | Homeless | Parents/Guardian:Mom (deceased) | Dad (absent) | Adoptive | Foster | Grandparents (deceased) | Family friend Relationship:Single | Crushing | Dating (in an undisclosed relationship) | Engaged | Married | Separated | It’s complicated |
I’ve been:In Love | Hurt | Sick | Abused I have a(n): Learning Disorder | Personality Disorder (OCD) | Mental Disorder | Anxiety Disorder | Eating Disorder | Substance-related Disorder Things I’ve done before:Drank alcohol | Smoked | Done drugs | Stolen | Self harmed | Starved myself | Had sex | Had a threesome | Gotten into a fist fight | Gone to the hospital | Gone to jail | Used a fake ID | Gone to a rave | Killed someone | Been in a war |
Her father’s absent, she knows nothing of him so there is nothing to tell. Her mother, from what she was told by her grandmother, was an elegant woman. Everything she did was graceful, and tender, and many would try to woo her. Sunhwa. She was the ideal daughter; great grades, well mannered, ufterly beautiful, intelligent, warm, never lazy — only that the perfect daughter turned out to be the most adventurous youngster and got herself pregnant by the age of nineteen, died at birth and left her own mother to take care of the baby.
